American singer Britney Spears has revealed many unknown details about her personal life in her memoir published on Tuesday, from her breakup with Justin Timberlake to how she says she was “half-dead”, AFP and Agerpres reported.

“I was afraid at home,” the singer writes on the first pages of her book “The Woman in Me”, published in the USA by Simon & Schuster.

Reason? Her father, Jamie Spears, guided all aspects of her personal and professional life for 13 years. Described as an alcoholic and violent man, he never stopped “humiliating” her over the years. In this context, she says, she started drinking at the age of 13 with her mother.

The singer returns to family history to try to explain the origin of this violence. Like, for example, when she talks about her paternal grandmother, Jean. Hospitalized by her grandfather, she committed suicide at the age of 31 at the grave of her son, who died three days after birth. –

Britney Spears talks about Benjamin Button Syndrome in her book

To forever remain the 17-year-old girl who conquered the hearts of millions with the hit “Baby One More Time”: the singer fought for this for years.

At the same time, she admits to suffering from Benjamin Button Syndrome, a reference to the film of the same name, inspired by F. Scott Fitzgerald’s story of the same name, about a man who is born old and gets younger as the years go by.

This is exactly what the star claims to have experienced at several points in his life. The first time was during her breakup with Justin Timberlake, when she locked herself in the house for days without getting out of bed like a child.

Then, during the birth of his children, when he says he felt like he was “becoming a baby again.” All in all, the fact that she was in care infantilized her to the point where she didn’t know how to be a “mature woman”.

About the relationship with Justin Timberlake

It was her only true love. And yet, the pop star never disclosed the details of their breakup to the public. Still, she explains in the book that she was “devastated” when Justin Timberlake broke up with her “over text.”

When he staged their breakup in his “Cry Me a River” video, going so far as to cast a Britney look-alike, she didn’t speak, silently enduring the media spotlight.

Reason? He would cheat on his partner. Although she admits that she cheated on the singer only once, Britney claims that cheating was a regular occurrence for him.

Described by the media in harsh terms, Britney was forced by her father to give an interview to American journalist Diana Sawyer, who asked her what she had done to Timberlake to cause her “so much pain”.

“I felt like I was being taken advantage of,” as if “I was trapped in front of the whole world,” she writes.

Britney says she was “half-dead” when she was on anti-depressants

“Britney Spears is me,” her father will tell her when, in 2021, she tries to challenge the guardianship that stole 13 years of his life.

“If I wasn’t fit to make decisions, why was I considered fit to speak in public?” he writes, referring to the 200 shows he’s managed during his Las Vegas residency.

“For two years I ate almost nothing but chicken and canned vegetables. (…) I begged for a hamburger or ice cream,” she says. The artist talks a lot in her memoirs about her hospitalization in 2019.

On antidepressants and lithium, “I was half dead,” she says. “I had the impression that they wanted to kill me,” the singer continued, praising the strength “in her” that allowed her to resist and rebel.

On November 12, 2021, a court in Los Angeles decided to terminate the guardianship under which Britney was kept by her father for more than ten years. She later married Sam Asghari, an American fitness instructor, model and actor, but they divorced after only 14 months of marriage.

Spears became engaged to Asghari while she was still in custody, and shared in court her desire to get married and have more children.